I Cried

I can't sleep. I dun know if it’s because I am anxious about my new posting or am I just not tired. My baby is beckoning me to rest beside her. I didn’t because I know I will fidget about and that would disrupt her sleep. Nevertheless, I love to watch my baby sleep. I think I may be going nuts but there is something mesmerizing about the look on my baby's face when she is sleeping (ok, I am nuts). No matter how I trudge along, and no matter what happens to me; I know that everything I do, I do it for my baby and my family.

I haven't been blogging cause of work and I couldn't think of what to write. Anyway, because I couldn't sleep I watched The Persuit of Happyness. I have been intending to watch it for a long time but I just couldn't make time for it. Long story short, I watched it and I cried. The story puts Will Smith as a father who tries to provide for his family and despite insurmountable hurdles and setbacks, he succeeded through sheer determination. His son played by this kid, Jaden Christopher Syre Smith, was quietly supporting his dad. The sacrifices by Will and Jade brought me to tears. It reminded me of my mum and how selfless she has been and always putting her kids first despite harsh conditions.

Recently I have been thinking a lot about what I want in life. I think I think too much. Yet I do not feel comfortable if I don’t put enough thought into what I do. It is comforting to know that I have the most wonderful girlfriend in the world who will support me no matter what I do. Despite our differences we always come to terms with our differences and shine. Like I always say, TJ is not an easy person to get along with and she deserves a medal for putting up with me.

To my dear baby: I may not be perfect but you make me want to perfect myself. Thanks for always standing by me and covering my ass. You make my bare ass complete.