Been rather lost lately. Exams are just around the corner but I have no sense of urgency unlike my friends. Everyone has been rushing with their revision but I have been stoning at home. I have been on a short fuse lately, no idea. I hate to be lost, I hate this feeling. I have been snapping at people around me and I am really so sorry. My bad, please accept my apology.

After going for a run on a cold study break around UWA, many things came to my mind. It scares me that it is all ending soon. However, what scares me more is that I really have no idea what I want nowadays. Everything is just so vague. My mind is in a blurr, my focus is off on the most useless of all things, everything seeme to irritate me. Its like going through puberty again minus the growth of the phallus. Wouldnt mind the growth but I could sure do without the mood swings.

I just took Snowy to the vet because he was limping. Why was he limping? Caused I spanked him. For what? I dun want to talk about it. Anyway, it costed a bomb and I seriously could have done without the hole in my pocket now but thats not the case. Its really wonderful that after I spanked him, he still comes to me everytime I call him. Like a little child, he longs to be hugged and cuddled. I kinda feels bad about it. I think I might have been disciplining him the way my dad used to discipline me. Not good. I guess childhood experiences do shape life in the later years. I think one of the things I want to do now apart from studying for my exams is to collect my emotions and behave like an adult. Having mood swings as volatile as a bitch during PMS is not cool, especially when it lasts for more than 6 months. Not cool.

One important thing, need to thank Kong for lending me his car for my errands around the house. Thanks alot bud. Btw, lay off the porn. Not good to get too sexed up. LOL.

Ok, time to go back to the books. =)