I Cried

I can't sleep. I dun know if it’s because I am anxious about my new posting or am I just not tired. My baby is beckoning me to rest beside her. I didn’t because I know I will fidget about and that would disrupt her sleep. Nevertheless, I love to watch my baby sleep. I think I may be going nuts but there is something mesmerizing about the look on my baby's face when she is sleeping (ok, I am nuts). No matter how I trudge along, and no matter what happens to me; I know that everything I do, I do it for my baby and my family.

I haven't been blogging cause of work and I couldn't think of what to write. Anyway, because I couldn't sleep I watched The Persuit of Happyness. I have been intending to watch it for a long time but I just couldn't make time for it. Long story short, I watched it and I cried. The story puts Will Smith as a father who tries to provide for his family and despite insurmountable hurdles and setbacks, he succeeded through sheer determination. His son played by this kid, Jaden Christopher Syre Smith, was quietly supporting his dad. The sacrifices by Will and Jade brought me to tears. It reminded me of my mum and how selfless she has been and always putting her kids first despite harsh conditions.

Recently I have been thinking a lot about what I want in life. I think I think too much. Yet I do not feel comfortable if I don’t put enough thought into what I do. It is comforting to know that I have the most wonderful girlfriend in the world who will support me no matter what I do. Despite our differences we always come to terms with our differences and shine. Like I always say, TJ is not an easy person to get along with and she deserves a medal for putting up with me.

To my dear baby: I may not be perfect but you make me want to perfect myself. Thanks for always standing by me and covering my ass. You make my bare ass complete.

The past week

Last week I finally visited a submarine. An Australian submarine in Singapore for the IMDEX. I cun say much but I pretty much wana be a submariner now. I know its gona be demanding, and it will be a whole new ball game but I know I will be fine. =)

I WATCHED POTO. I think I am a clutz. I thought the show was at 830 so I took my time when I was driving down. Only when I reached the Esplanade that I realised that it was at 800. Then I was wondering why my hunnie was bugging me to go faster. Thank god I wasnt too late. POTO was fantastic, I would gladly pay another 130 to watch it again (Discounted tickets rocks). My favourite character was the phantom was fantastic, every single move, every single gesture I could feel his anger, his rage, his disappointment in society and the feeling of him being outcasted and extreme loneliness. He was so good that I felt like I knew what he was feeling. Or rather, its the connection between the minds of the wierd.

Yesterday was Steph's paternal grandmother's birthday. It was a rather traditional thingy, the first I have seen. Everyone was serving tea to the matriarch and wishing her well. I was standing by the side and just looking on. It then dawn on me. One of life's joys is to be able to spend time with family. To be able to watch the grandchild grow up, to watch them as you watch your own kids grow from boys to men, gals to women. Such joy, such happiness. This is the simple pleasures of life. Not the new porsche 911 turbo sitting on your front lawn. However, I wouldnt mind if anyone gives me that for my birthday coz its coming soon. Hee hee.

I love this song. Been listening to this and Everything. Love the lyrics, love the tune. Kinda what I feel atm. =)

Btw, still thinking of what I want for my birthday other than u...

=)

Life sucks

Life sucks period. Been working so hard and yet things dun seem to work out. Why cun things just go my way for once. Its just so depressing. I dun know but I got this headache while I was driving home from work. Paired up with the bloody inconsiderate singaporean drivers; I could feel my head was being spilt open with a chisel and mallet. I studied so hard yet it seems like I am inadequate. I try so hard in being a family man yet the feedback I get makes me feel like all my effort was for nothing. The whole week had been so tough, lacking in sleep and throw in shitloads of stress and the occasionaly migraine. You get the picture. Oh well, gona go pop a couple of panadol and try to sleep.

My baby is coming home, I am so excited. Cun wait to see her. Now I only want her to come back asap. I hate waiting, never did like it, never will. Let there be no doubt that I love her. Hope the feeling is mutual. Miss ya hunnie.

Sometimes, certain things have to happen in order for us to appreciate the pple around us. Whether it be our loved ones or close friends. We have a tendency to not appreciate those around us. This is a warning to all my friends, pls show appreciation to your loved ones. A kiss, a word of praise, a look of love or just an hug. Pls do something to show that you appreciate your loved ones. Do it before its too late. For those in love, do not do anything to screw up your relationship. In the end, regret is what you will feel. Is it worth it screwing up the happiness of the later part of your life for a few seconds of trill? I guess not. Look before you leap. =)